It happened to a rabbi who had no children that after a
long while an only son was born to him. He brought him up and took a wife
for him. The son sat on the upper floor and studied, as is the wont of
the sons of rich men. He always studied and prayed. Nevertheless he felt
it in himself that he was deficient in something, but he did not know
what it was he lacked. He felt that his study and his prayer had no meaning
for him. He told about this to two youths, who advised him to go to a
certain Tzaddiq. Once the son performed a mitzva [an important
religious deed] through which he achieved the rank of a Small Luminary.
The son went and told his father that he found no meaning in his study
and in his service [of God], and that he lacked something but did not
know what, and therefore he wanted to go to that Tzaddiq. His father replied
to him: "Why should you want to go to him, when you are a greater
scholar than he and are of nobler descent? It is not seemly that you go
to him. Give up this plan!" Thus he prevented him from going.
The son returned to his studies, and again felt a deficiency in his soul.
He again took counsel with the same men, and they again advised him to
go to the Tzaddiq. He went again to his father, and his father prevented
him from going to the Tzaddiq this time too.
The son continuously suffered from his deficiency and desired greatly
to remedy it, but he did not know what it was and how to remedy it. Finally
he went to his father and entreated him very much that he should let him
go to the Tzaddiq. His father could not refuse him, and was forced to
travel with him, for he did not want to let his only son travel alone.
And his father said to him: "Behold, I shall go with you and show
you that there is no substance in him!"
They hitched up the cart and departed. His father said to him:
"Let this be a sign for us: if our journey goes smoothly, the thing
is from heaven. But if not, it is not from heaven, and we shall turn back."
They traveled. They came to a small bridge. One of the horses fell and
the cart turned over, and they almost drowned. His father said to him:
"You see, our journey is wrong. It is not from heaven." They
returned home.
The son returned to his studies, and again felt the deficiency, and did
not know what it was. He again importuned his father about the journey.
His father was forced to go with him a second time. And again made a condition
as he did the first time: "If the journey goes smoothly, fine; but
if not, it is not from heaven." The axle of the cart broke. His father
said to him: "Again our journey has proved to be wrong. The matter
is not from heaven." So they turned back again.
The son returned to his studies but they did not progress satisfactorily.
His deficiency gave him no rest. He importuned his father that he should
go with him this time without any condition and without any sign. The
signs mean nothing-it is quite an ordinary thing that a horse should fall
occasionally, or that the axle of a cart should break.
They traveled and came to an inn to stay overnight. They met there a merchant,
and began to talk to him as is the wont of merchants. They did not tell
him that they were on their way to that Tzaddiq, for the rabbi was ashamed
to divulge such a thing. They talked about the affairs of the world. In
the course of their talk the matter of Tzaddiqim came up, and where Tzaddiqim
were found. The merchant told them that here lived a Tzaddiq, and there,
and there. They began to talk about the Tzaddiq to whom they were going.
The merchant said: "That one! He is of little worth. I am just coming
from him. I was there and saw that he was guilty of a transgression."
The father said to his son: "Do you see? This merchant is talking
casually, and he has just come from there!" And they returned home.
The son fell ill, and departed from the world. Then he came in a dream
to his father. His father saw him standing in great wrath. He asked him:
"Why are you angry?" He answered him: "Go to that Tzaddiq,
and he will tell you why I am angry." The father woke up and thought:
"It happened by chance." Then he dreamt a second time. He said:
"This, too, happened by chance." And so it happened three times.
Finally he took the matter to heart and went to that Tzaddiq. On the way
he entered an inn to rest. It so happened that it was the same inn where
he stayed with his son the previous time. He also met there that merchant
whom he and his son had met the first time. He recognized him and asked
him: "Are you he whom I saw then?" The merchant replied: "Certainly
you saw me then."
And then the merchant opened his mouth and said: "Do you remember,
when you traveled with your son, at first the horse fell on the bridge,
and you turned back. Then the axle broke, and you turned back. The third
time you met me and I told you that he [the Tzaddiq] was of no value,
and you turned back. Now that I have dispatched your son, now you are
permitted to complete your journey. For be it known to you: Your son had
the rank of a Small Luminary, and that Tzaddiq has the rank of a Great
Luminary. Had they met and joined forces, the Messiah
would have come. But since I dispatched him, you are permitted
to go on. "Thus he spoke and disappeared. The rabbi stood amazed.
There was nobody with whom he could have spoken.
He continued his journey to the Tzaddiq. He came to him and cried: "Woe,
woe! Woe for those who are lost and cannot be found!"
May the Name, blessed be He, return our exiles soon, Amen!
(Nahman of Bratzlav, Sippure Ma'asiyyot, story
no. 4, pp. 22-24.)
Source: Raphael Patai, The Messiah Texts, Wayne
State University Press